Human nature

It is amazing (amazingly annoying) how a single human can feel so independent and empowered yet so sickeningly lonesome at the same time.


I have to get through these next two weeks. I want a hug.


I want to ride bikes on Hilton Head. I can't wait until I can do that, that and sincerely smile.

The Music Building

Such a cold, literally cold, place. Why is the lobby so cold? Tonight it is about 33 degrees out, but the temperature in here is the same as it was when it was 80 degrees out.

33 degrees. That's what I am. Not extreme enough to change something but still uncomfortable.

I'll stay in here until the too-old-to-be-a-janitor black lady comes in and laughs at me at four-thirty in the morning. She's so sweet, I hope they pay her well.

And now, as amphetamine salts do their magic on my neurotransmitters, I sit in the dark of the lobby and wait for her, so I may smile back and be happy about where I am right now.

Mahler's 2nd Symphony resonates through my being and I write about he was a failed composer while he was alive. Yet his music has moved me to tears, and I feel I haven't the justice to write about him for some meaningless project.

At least he didn't die as abruptly as Mozart of Schubert. Although Schubert did have it coming, with all the sex and drugs he consumed his time with.

No sleep for me tonight. I blew the chance.

So Long, Lonesome

Beautiful moment:

It was a light rain. I was high, for the first time in a long time. I was walking back from rehearsing at around eleven at night. Not too cold. Listening to the title of this blog. It was nice. So nice that I decided to make it last longer and stopped in the middle of the sidewalk. I quickly turned around and scared the girl walking behind me. It was funny.


I hope it happens again sometime.

Fun

...spending twenty-fucking-thousand dollars a year deciding what I may or may not want to do with myself.


Here's to a new eleven and a half months.

Dependence

Around 7 pm on a Saturday night.


I am blogging again. I am proud of myself. I wanted to do this last week, but as I was writing (I was also rendering a project in Reaper (I know you're not supposed to do other things while doing that, but I was being impatient)) my computer randomly turned off. It actually gave me a bit of a scare, but I'm used to computer problems.

Also last week, I (in my mom's car) parked at Burkes Beach. A mean person threw this into my window :


Once inside, they took Amanda's bag with her ipod, phone, money, debit card, and other things in it. I felt bad. It's also costing me about 500$ for the damage. Also, no more car. I guess it was my fault someone broke the window, right?

Other than that, things have been quite boring. I've been refining my ear for recording. It's fun to wade through all these bad sounds and tones and finally find the one you are looking for. Like most things, a good sound takes practice. Practice, and help you find on forums. Unlike most damned forums (or most damned everything) on the internet, recording engineering and sound production forums are sincere and valuable.

I've been demoing new ideas on this:

I found it at a thrift store last summer for $12. Surely a nice find. I've been using an old stereo microphone my (living) grandfather gave me. I'm recording on old tapes taken from my (deceased) grandfather's house. It's very nice and simple. I like the sound.

With that said, I have two new compositions for your ears:

Untitled D - Instrumental. I had a small version of this up last week of just the main idea. I developed it into a full piece. I like where it went.
Untitled D by ileee

"Slowly" - Idea/Song. I took the words from a entry I wrote in a notebook from last year. I kind of just improvised a chord structure and melody, which is why it seems a little weak. This was also done at about 3:30 in the morning. My voice is quite tired and shaky. This was done on tape. After, I ran it through Alice (my amp), eq'd the low end out as to try to isolate the vocals, and added some spring reverb to it. This went to another tape. I then mixed the two tapes through my soundboard on to a new tape. I wanted to keep this all analog as a first. It's a tedious process, but I feel good about it.
"Slowly" by ileee



That's about it. The new Colour Revolt is pretty ace. Go get it.

Nameless

Around 9 pm on a Monday night.

I haven't blogged in a while, and every time I do I always tell myself I will continue with it, but I have failed to do so. At least until:

.....

NOW


We'll see if I keep it up.

I'm beginning to notice how dark of an individual I really am lately. It's starting to present itself to others now, and I'm being confronted about it. OH WELL. It's not like I'm a serial killer or anything.

I've produced some music for anyone who would want to hear. I think the quality of sound is pretty good. As for the quality of writing and overall musicianship, I'll let you be the judge:

Untitled B - Instrumental. I'm not going to touch it anymore. It is done.

Untitled B by ileee

Untitled D - Instrumental. This is the basic idea - a little snippet - of something I thought of a few minutes ago. Obviously, I will develop it more. It's a little boring now. But this is just a short little demonstration of the idea. I like reversing things. It creates a nice ambient drone. But like I said, this is a skeleton.

Untitled D by ileee

Linky: www.myspace.com/thisisachild

This house makes people go crazy. That, or people are naturally crazy, and this house just allows them to be sincere. This is a sincere house? hah!


Let me know what you think about the tunes.


Thanks so much!


April 23 - 2009 (out of my old journal)

I wonder how I'll go
"Not with a bang, but a wimper?"
Will they read about me in the papers?
My name's short enough to only take up a few centimeters -
There will still be room for the ads and stoke quotes
(all the new births and newly eloped).

There will be no folded flag, no bagpipes,
No guns shot in the air,
but what will I care?
I'm dead.
Do with me what you want;
Don't spend money on my lifeless body.
It's lifeless, and therefore can't protest what you do.
Be creative.

I made it just in time. I'm going to try to blog once again. I tried back in February, but I failed. It seems like this is a good way to unload your head. Also it would be a place to actually release music that I do in my dark room.

Let's get started.

Student at Winthrop University for Music Ed, percussionist
Enjoys listening to music, new and old, from everywhere
Tired often, sometimes annoying, very peculiar friends
Plays in a few bands, both drums and guitar/sing
Lives on Hilton Head when not at Winthrop
Plays all sorts of different instruments
Annoyed easily by some people
Loves to record things
Music and stuff
sleeps little
musics
Ian C.
Lee
18
M.

One band: www.myspace.com/youngmancarbuncular
Two band: www.myspace.com/senselessbeats
Three: www.myspace.com/thisisachild


There that is. My grandfather found a random mic in his room the other day, so he gave it to me. It's pretty convenient because it has a 1/8 inch jack which means it can just plug in my computer line in and skip all the peripherals. It's also a stereo mic, powered by a AA battery in the capsule. So I wanted to try it out real fast.

I do this song to often, but it was one I can do really easily. I also wanted to experiment with the background vocals just singing chords with heavy reverb. So here is a cover of an Andy Hull song:



Goodbye for now! I have a lot of other music I will put up eventually.